If you knew me....

You don't know me.
You think my silence means I judge.
You think I'm shy because I don't speak.
You don't know me.
You think my constant laughing means my head's full of air.
You think I like all corny jokes.
You don't know me.
You think my gaze is a blank stare.
You don't see my eyes searching for your soul.
You don't know me.
You think my smile means I'm happy.
You think I'm laughing at you.
If you knew me--
You'd know I'm silent because I'm pondering.
You'd know I can't ever think of the right things to say.
You'd know I'm bursting with questions, waiting to flood out.
You'd know I want you to speak to me--I want to know you.
You'd know that I'd never judge you for being who you are.
If you knew me--
You'd know I laugh for many reasons.
I laugh when I'm embarrassed.
I laugh when situations turn awkward.
I laugh to try and make people comfortable.
I laugh because I love the people I'm with.
I laugh because of the silly thoughts running through my head.
I laugh because you said something that made me laugh.
If you knew me--
You'd know my eyes are searching you, trying to dig deep.
You'd know I'm memorizing every detail about you.
You'd know that I need to stare in order to think deep thoughts.
You'd know I'm trying to let you know that you're important.
You'd know I'm trying to understand your feelings.
If you knew me--
You'd know I smile to make others happy.
You'd know I smile to hide my tears.
You'd know I smile because God is good.
You'd know I smile because I am happy to see you.
You'd know I smile because it's softer than a laugh.
You'd know I smile because of my secret thoughts.
You don't know me.
If you knew me....