Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Karito
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
What comes first?
Monday, October 24, 2011
Baking is a Hobby
Sunday, October 9, 2011
First Love
I'm praying for you tonight.
You don't know me,
and I don't know you,
but somehow, we are both known.
In the soft dark,
my thoughts flex their wings
and soar on currents
blowing to you.
Your greatest joy,
your worst failure,
floating on
the winds of
celestial air.
I lift them both
up to the windows
of the One who knows,
who knows you,
who knows me,
and trust
that one day,
we will meet,
that He guards
your heart,
your mind,
your love,
for Himself,
until the day
when we are equal
in our love
for One
so much greater,
until the day
when we will meet
and strive together
for our first love.
The beginning
She sat on her bed, one foot under her butt, just thinking in the shadows of the room. The sun was gradually sliding down the sky, sometimes hiding behind the wispy gray clouds, sometimes shooting friendly beams of warmth across her pensive face. It seemed like there was no one to talk to, no one to have fun with, no one to eat or drink with—no one to love. Every day she got up, went through the daily rituals of cleansing, eating, going to school. Everyone smiled, a few stared, many just walked on by. The other students in her class greeted her, but no one bothered to ask why she looked so tired every day. No one rushed to sit by her. A few kind students made efforts to include her in the conversations, but they didn’t know her, didn’t know that she wasn’t interested in their silly gossip, that she didn’t want to participate. This was normal, it was her life. Sometimes she took the chance, reached out, tried to fit in with the mindless chatter, tried to pretend that the pointless activities had some profound meaning, but eventually she always cracked her mask, couldn’t keep acting like she cared, and ended up alone. Again. Just sitting and thinking, pondering, wishing for a friend. The rare times when she couldn’t deal with it anymore, her heart overloaded with loneliness and longing, she poured it all into her music, her writing, her art, tears flowing down, which she tried to hide from the world. She knew she was silly, and yet she couldn’t escape the feelings that always dragged her down. To her, it was real, and something she couldn’t just walk away from. She concealed her feelings from those she knew to love her, except in moments of weakness, because, however well-intentioned they were, they never ended up really listening. Instead, they ended up talking about their own lives, or butting in with advice, thinking feelings are a simple math problem that can be solved with the right equation.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Luchas
fall into the footprints of the present,
the dirt creasing and smudging
the crisp impressions of new life.
What is this grudge against learning,
against embracing the vibrant,
the living mezcla of tuturutu,
aji, and el pie de Misti?
Stuck in the mold
of dreams known before,
Luchas for new inspiration,
new love, nueva hogar.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
a kind of guy
like the kind of guy
I would get to know
if I was reading a good book.
The hero of the story,
the one who always comes through
in the end,
and saves the girl.
You seem
like the kind of guy
who smiles at everyone,
and though you talk to me,
I know that you
won't ever remember my name.
You seem
like the kind of guy
who could be so much more
than the average career-and-settle-down,
who doesn't give up big dreams
just because they're not practical.
You seem
like the kind of guy
I wish I knew.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
To love is to be hurt
not free from pain.
Always continuing,
always reaching out,
even when your hand is smacked away,
and your heart gets shattered.
When I think about his pain,
how he was abused emotionally
by his twelve closest friends,
betrayed, denied, abandoned,
how he was physically wounded,
in the most brutal way possible,
mocked, jeered, tormented,
yet.....
he chose to love the friends who abandoned him,
he chose to love the soldiers who beat him,
he chose to love the crowd that mocked him,
and still.....
he chooses to love the unrepentant murderer,
he chooses to love the straying spouse,
he chooses to love the gossiping friend,
he chooses to love...me.
How can I refuse to love
those who simply rub me wrong?
How can I refuse to love
those who stabbed me in the back?
How can I refuse to love
the strangers that I meet?
To love is to be hurt.